I’ve been feeling so unmotivated-motivated recently. Like I have one hundred thousands things I would like to do, but somehow every time I try to tackle something on my list I feel overwhelmed and end up doing nothing. It’s not just the case of trying to tackle the big to-do list, but I’ve also felt very unmotivated-motivated when it comes to inspiration and creativity. Mostly, the fear of being mediocre, producing uninspiring work, and as a result I end up doing nothing. I feel like I am not operating at my highest, most creative self and that I waste a lot of time in the process.
Today, during my morning coffee I tried to get to the bottom of what it was that was stopping me from connecting to my creativity and productivity. And it all points towards the good-old imposter syndrome. Indeed, it’s a hot mess of harmfulness. Comparing myself to others means that I get disconnected from my own inspiration; my voice gets diluted and I think that I’m staring to sound like a replica of everyone else.
Imposter syndrome creeps up unexpectedly. One minute, I feel like a creative genius, and the next I subconsciously decide that everything I’ve been working on is total and utter garbage.
So how do we solve it? Well, part of me don’t think that we can. But, another part of me believe that we can take steps to eliminate the feeling of being an imposter, little by little. This morning, I started with 30 minutes, 30 minutes sitting down, doing absolutely nothing (that means no instagram friends!). I tried to focus on how it made me feel, which was a mix of anxiousness and boredom. But it was fine to feel like that, because I was forced to listen to my body and reconnect with my mind. 30 minutes, every other day. I’m hoping it might help.
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