Pastel florals & dreaming of summer
It’s that time of the year again; where I long for summer days, the smell of suncream and dinners that turns into gatherings – where days feel elastic and full of possibilities. All I want to do is lay and stare at the blue skies and listen to the sound of the ocean waves. Maybe I’m longing for what summer represents because the truth is that there’s so much going on in the background. Things I’m dying to share, things I’m scared of sharing and things I will share.
One of the things that I can share is that my contract at the university (my “part-time” day job when I don’t work with content) is coming to an end in August. This has really filled me with massive anxiety – which I’m unsure why. It’s not so much that it is the actual ending of the contract, but more so that not being tied to THAT job anymore makes me question, and reconsider what’s next.
The more I’ve pursued the content creation and all the things that are brewing in the background (oh this is what I’m dying to share – hold on a little bit longer, it’ll all be revealed soon), the more I’ve felt out of synch and unsure about my given career path (i.e. working within academia). At the moment it’s hard to sit with those feelings and I feel apprehensive, stressed, anxious, but also so incredibly excited about the jobs and projects I’m embarking on.